it's the last day of school!
time passes by really quickly.
a year already?
had big breakfast today.
thn prize-givin.
felt nothing.
probably 'cause tht it's the same people next year.


headed straight home today.
"it's the last day of sch and you just went home?",
u might think.
ha.


've been waiting since 19102006.
really want to watch deathnote.
wonder why it's so difficult to get everyone together.


ok~ candy, this was wht you wanted me to do. .
7 random facts about me:
crazy.
introvert.
emotionally unstable.
temperament.
yielding.
loves company.
loves being by myself at times.

7 things that scare me:
typical long-haired, dirty-nailed female ghost.
walking home alone late at night.
failure.
being unaccepted.
creepy crawlies.
losing my loved ones.
myself.

7 Favourite Musics At The Moment:
jay chow's an jing.
evan yo's wo ke yi.
evanescence's call me when you're sober.
linkin park's numb.
panic! at the disco's i write sins, not tragedies.
nickelback's savin' me.
justin timberlake's my love.



7 People I Fancy:
must it be only 7?

7 Things I Say Most:
ah!
oui!
halo!
ok~
walau~
qu si~
bye.

7 Things I like most:
hp.
com.
OBS.
fluffy furry stuff.
music.
sports.
food!, namely chocolates. .

7 People to Do This:
jasmine!
eunice!
vivien!
haiye!
hanchun!
ivan!
jing xin!




ytd.
had street fest.
choir was there too.
[sigh!]
rehearsals and rehearsals.
thn the actual performance.
sang halfway,
[bom!]
thunder.
wth is this.
thn downpoured.
proves tht we can really bring rain.
send us to places with drought larh.
at least we can do some good.
[no offence to loyal choirmates.]

quite a no. of people were there.
unexpectedly.
saw mr.shaiful! aw, he's just so nice.

performance ended soon and met f.m, rachel, s.m, j.x and those below.
when jas, x.n, candy, cass, 940, s.j, j.w, daryl and me went to food junction for our long-awaited dinner.
didn't want it there.
but there was simply too many of us.
they can really talk a lot.
especially daryl.
f.m rachel went shopping.
j.x s.m long john's.

went "shopping".
some of thm left.
me j.x jas x.n and deli stopped at mac for a break.
thn we headed hm.

5:21 AM

this, secret

Yes.
'm pretty much lifeless at hm.
which explains the following.
've done countless ones.
here are a few addin to ytd's.

Your Life Is Worth...

$1,091,000

Wo. Unbelivable. Minyi's actually worth this much.

Your EQ is 127

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

Yet another miracle!

You Are 68% Paranoid Schizophrenic

You definitely have a chance of being a paranoid schizophrenic. Crazy or not, you certainly don't have a good grip on reality!

True.

8:15 PM

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You Are 40% Girly

You are a pretty hardcore tomboy, and a very free spirit. Gender roles be dammed, you like to do things your way.

See tht?
Now stop sayin i'm girly, gu niang or sissy!
=D

You Are 30% Normal

You sure do march to your own beat... But you're so weird, people wonder if it's a beat at all You think on a totally different wavelength And it's often a chore to get people to understand you

Like the sound of this...

You Are Cookie Monster

Misunderstood as a primal monster, you're a true hedonist with a huge sweet tooth. You are usually feeling: Hungry. Cookies are preferred, but you'll eat anything if cookies aren't around. You are famous for: Your slightly crazy eyes and usual way of speaking How you life your life: In the moment. "Me want COOKIE!"

Your Blogging Type is Spontaneous and Shocking

Nothing is off limits for you when it comes to blogging. In fact, your blogging style is basically "Shock and Awe." You're competitive - you strive to be an A list blogger. And with your wild writing style, you just might make it.

12:28 PM

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Smile big for everyone, even when you know what they've done.

'm like so sick.
perhaps of the haze.
maybe results.
don't know.

spent the whole mornin reading others' blogs.
like some psyco larh.
everyone who blogged was talkin about results [overall]
they've gttn ytd.
and yes,
'd do the same.

well,
this is it.
EL: B4. there goes my A.
EM: D7. 49/100. wth.
Combined Sci: B3. 2 marks to A2.
Combined H: C5.
Literature: B4.
MT: A2.
POA: B4. surprisingly.
[SIGH!]

our class,
bravo man!
10 were in the retain list.
[goodness.]
other classes too had a no. of 'retainers'. all not-yet-decided, ok?
rmb seeing everyone's face.
tht expression on it.
anxiety.
most of thm only failed English.
and they are going to be retained?
tht's so damn-freaking unfair!
today's the promotion day.
hopefully things will turn out right for them.
[please do!]

ytd. i ponned choir.
please larh.
do you expect me to go?
so we [candy cass jianwei yuyao me] slacked in the canteen.
it's been a long time since we did tht.
ah pa havin ncc meetin dere.
ha.
we were disturbin thm all the time,
from j.w's HARDGAY's actions to the Silk's.
soon y.y and j.w entertained the rest of us in this magnificient
'you act[j.w] and i laugh[y.y]' scene.
[lol. we can't stop laughing.]
talked crap.
but we laughed like mad.
sort of de-stressed thn.
thanks a lot guys!
aft ncc's over,
we went 840 playground again.
saw mian'er and her friends.
obviously to bball court larh.
mm, slacked.
can't help but to feel tht we shouldn't be there.


the day before ytd.

j.x cass candy me went to cc mac.
saw the guy i used to bump into every mornin.
ah pa joined us l8r.
and when we left,
saw a pri sch friend.
jason, ha.
he was on his bike and just whizzed past me.
assume tht he doesn't recognize me.
brought back some memories, though.
[sigh!]
candy recognized him too.
we told cass tht.
she went like "JASON! JASON!".
almost stuffed my shoe into her mouth.
siao.
he'd better not hear her.

thn we went to the playground near my place.
j.w joined us.
talked bout results, again.
we've got no lives.


and if you've been readin this all along,
thanks for being so patient.

2:32 AM

this, secret

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me, you would be here with me.
You want me, come find me.
Make up your mind.

Should've let you fall,
Lose it all,
So maybe you can remember yourself.
Can't keep believing,
We're only deceiving ourselves,
And I'm sick of the lies,
And you're too late.

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me, you would be here with me.
You want me, come find me.
Make up your mind.

Couldn't take the blame,
Sick with shame.
Must be exhausting to lose your own game.
Selfishly hated,
No wonder you're jaded,
You can't play the victim this time.
And you're too late.

So, don't cry to me.
If you loved me, you would be here with me.
You love me, come find me.
Make up your mind.

You never call me when you're sober,
You only want it `cause it's over - it's over.

How could I have burned paradise.
How could I, you were never mine?

So, don't cry to me.
If you loved me, you would be here with me.
Don't lie to me, just get your things.
I've made up your mind.


shoutout:
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAIYE!!!"

2:55 PM

this, secret

'm so so damned dead.
gt back 5 papers today.
as expected,
failed poa.
've gtn 41.5/100.
mdm kho was so disappointed.
shit.

failed emath.
embarassin.
gtn a mere 37.5 for it.
[my gawd.]

shld jus go bang wall + jump off buildin.
[sigh!]

passed bio[B3].
mt[A2].
lit[C5] .

if things don't get better,
my future is vast.

but fortunately i've gt good friends.
Vivien volunteered to teach me MCQ, bank recon.,
Candy/Cass - depreciation, disposal, durin the hols.
they are goin to have a very hard time.
trust me.

sad sadded sadden.

went bac hm.
took hp.
went out again.
with whom n where i shan't tell in case i'm invitin trouble.
u guys shld noe.
[lol.]

msned.
chatted quite a lot today.
in fact, too much.
disclosed to ivan some personal matters.
yup,
made sure he exchanged some with me.
so tht it's fair.
[aha.]

discussed 'the living dead' with dear ah pa.
[vampire family!]

bushed.
it's 3/4 past 11.
1/4 to 12.
whtever.

sleepy.

11:28 AM

this, secret

'm so bored.
complainin everday.
growin old soon.

sch was sian the whole day.
talks and talks.
first was dm.
next,
someone from republic poly.
thn,
temasek poly.
ha.
paid attention to tht.
' integrated resort design & management '.
tht is wht i wish to take.
coincidentally, there was this talk.
[lol.]
however,
entry requirement = 17.
hope i can make it.
initially wanted,
' mass comm '.
ha.
for tht,
ety rqmt = 12.
[think so.]
no chance la.
o.
found out sth relatin to guo harn.
wasn't supposed to know.
[sorriie!]

thn,
e1 & e5 went to i-hub.
antr talk.
SAL Business Sch.
Accountin and stuff.
my a/c...
[sigh!]

aft sch,
saw mr tenn.
[sigh!]
my paper 2,
ha.
less thn 20.
'm so dead.

candy, benjamin, shi jie, jian wei & me went tm.
bought candy's mom's present.
her birthday tml.
' HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTIE! '
jian wei left whn we were at yoshinoya.
ben left shortly.
the 3 of us,
went 'shoppin' in circles.
sian.
accompanied thm hm.
nt meanin to disrupt their ' er ren shi jie '.
o look.
his name is in there too!
[ahem.]
on the way she was pullin my sleeve,
sayin 'qu!, qu!'.
askin me to go to tml's outin.
uh ah.
nt goin.
[lol.]

sent her hm.
thn me & him walk the same way.
[i sinned.]
'm headin hm.
he was goin to j.w's hse.
we lamed along the way.
no.
we didn't walk with one leg.
[ahem.] [sorriie.]

thn we walk separate ways.
[phew!]
thn hm.
[sign!]

one day's gone just like tht.
at this rate,
i keep
'[sigh!]', grumblin, apologisin
everyday,
'm really goin to grow old soon.

old lady needs her rest now.

5:20 PM

this, secret

YEAH.
had last paper today.
it's finally over.
but,
there's still results.


'm so damn happy.
ya.
wish to.
'm so bored.
candy + others went cyclin'.
didn't join thm.
can't cycle.
pathetic.
candy, sorriie.
knew you wanted an outin' for so long.
[sigh!]


've been home for hrs.
tried to slp.
but.
can't slp in broad daylight.
it's always like tht.
hate this.
was on the phone with jasmine.
bored her out.
man.

chatted with ivan on msn.
he's still havin exams.
[tsk!]
thn some unknown guy came askin' some nonsensical qns.
shucks.
and thn came another.
"~!@#$%^&*()?"
mood goes from hanging by the cliff to,
the summit.

picked myself up from the ground.
gathered some energy.
started to change blogskin.
made it.
exhausted.
and now.
this.
drained.


lamed with ivan [nerd!].
see tagboard.


dyin.

5:31 PM

this, secret

'm back. ya. [applause]
it's been a couple of months...
gt com fixed weeks ago.
've gt so many things to write...
a lot of things happened within this period of time.
bt how 'm i goin to start?

[sigh!] okay. here goes...

had cl paper 2 n poa paper today.
[exams had started for a week]
cl was ok. but for poa...
terrible.
can't do everything.
almost teared.
nah.
nt almost.
expecting no more than 40/100.
drag.
who can i blame?
n it's over.
next.

ok. now friends.
after splittin to diff classes,
all's been well.
we still remain in close contact.
[sigh!]
hope tt 'll last.
o yes. nt forgettin...

OBS!
attended obs.
10072006-14072006.
BATTUTA watch.
instructors - Hiap Luh and Jackie.
gawd i miss thm.
had so much fun thn.
kayaked.
hiked.
jumped.
sprinted.
climbed.
yelled.
bled.
played.
laughed.
cried.[didn't wish to]
now tt reminds me.
pls don laugh.

this was wht happened...
on the third night, we were preparin for dinner, thn i couldn't find our friend jing xin[ j.x ].
went back to the tent, called out to her a couple of times, no response.
it was really dark. i didn't hav a torchlight with me. assumed she wasn't in there.
went ard askin, no one saw her. was like, 'my gawd! where's she?'
told candy n x.n. [battuta was with 3 other watches, namely amundsen(candy), cheng ho(x.n) n 1 other i cn't recall].
panicked.
han chun thn found me in this near-berserk state. accompanied me in search for j.x.
there was still no sigh of her. thn i broke down.[ahem]
we even went to the other area, where junko, columbus were.
everbody saw me in tears.
went back.
guess wht?
j.x was there!
candy x.n n me thn we did sth. aww... nt tellin! =x


l8r i found out tt she was in the tent all the while. apparently she dozed off therefore she couldn't hear me n yes, i didn't see her!
arh! is this plain stupidity or wat?


till here!

1:28 PM

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